Life is a perception of your own reality

Sometimes in life,we get discriminated by others for the things we do,for the things we believe in.Despite the fact that we 're trying to change or make things right,others would judge us.We ask ourselves in life what is worth fighting for despite knowing that in life,everone of us has something to fight for.

I believe that with dreams are attainable,it's just what we do and how we do to achieve them.

i guess,i'm gonna have to prove to the people around me who judged me that i'm someone who is gonna reach that god damn goal.

I could had forgotten about updating this rotten lj of mine,but i guess i can't disappoint my faithful readers who drop by every now and then just to read about my updates.

Well,apologies to those who always drops by my lj but yet fail to see any updates,whoever you are out there,i'm glad to know that i still have people reading this god damn piece of shit.

Anyway,been rather busy with studies recently,and gym of course!

Been lifting more weights than even lifting a pen recently but due to exams,i guess it's time to stop procrastination and prepare for the exams.

Oh yeah,forgotten to mention that my first paper was out today,which was fundamentals of marketing.

Pretty easy i could say,but i somehow or rather screwed it up,so i'm still considering whether easy would be the right word to describe this paper.

Oh well,whatever the case is,i think i did my best for it.

Afterall,two nights of burning the midnight oil,i just hope it was worth it.

Oh yeah,and i'm feeling fucked up now because i strained my back while doing squads in the gym last night.

Hope it recovers soon though!

Shall go do with abit of gaming now!

Dota Ftw!

Ciaos!

 

It's 4:06 and i'm still wondering why i'm posting at such an hour,but i guess it doesn't really matter,does it?

The week been going great for me so far,despite the fact that many things happened during my last weekend.

But i guess this is life,things do happen and they all happen for god knows whatever reasons.

Managed to find back time to hit the gym and i guess it's really difficult to pull some weights when you stopped going all of a sudden and believe me,the feeling sucks.

But fuck it,i ain't giving up just like that but i'm gonna get back to where i started!

Oh yeah,and in another 1 or 2 week's time,gonna be gauging both sides of my ear.

Don't ask why,but it's been a long while since i considered doing it.

And to S,if you happen to be reading this,i just want you to know that the reason why i couldn't get myself to text you after that night when i last messaged you was because i felt that even if we continued going on like this,i knew that i 'll never be that 'guy' for you.I just felt that in my opinion after all this while,that i 'll be nothing but a burden to you.Maybe you wouldn't be thinking like that but for me,i would.I don't know but i have to thank god for one thing,and that was falling for you which i never thought i would in the beginning.To me,apart from other girls,you 're different in such a way that no words can describe and that was what made me fell for you.All i can say,i know that there are better guys out there for you and i know that i can never be better than alot of guys out there and that's why i'm moving on.

Low self esteem,that's what they call it,but that's me and i 've to live with it.
 

Feels good to know that i can sleep late tonight,and without thinking that i have to wake up at 6am on a monday morning.

Anyway,gonna make the fullest use of this holiday that i have.

it's not an extremly long one,but at least i'm contented and besides,i had an extremly long one before school started so i definitely don't wanna go back to having that bummer life feeling.

So right now when everyone is sleeping,i'm gonna continue watching my prison break!

Thanks zac bro for the shows!

Ciaos!


 

''4 days is all i left.''

Another 4 days more to my exams and i'm still struggling with the remainding chapters that i have to study.

Guess there wouldn't be any plans up ahead for the weekends besides studying.

Afterall,i hope that after this entire one week of study break,my effort would be paid off.

Anyway,i catched transformers 2 yesterday,pretty awesome show.

But it's kinda sad though,that Megan Fox was a turnoff cause she is a freaking transsexual.

Ciaos!.










 

Going to town to study tomorrow!

Gonna pray hard that i would be at town studying instead of being at a place where i shouldn't be at.

And right now,my biggest motivation to go to the gym is Hugh jackman.

Damn,i would do anything just to get his body.

But then again,it may take years but i ain't giving up because i'm gonna have a body like hugh jackman's.

Hugh Jackman Ftw!




 

Things just can't go according to plan,and to make things worst,i'm down with a Flu,Cough and sore throat.

And i would like to thank those people who told me that i'm on the verge of getting H1n1 ,thanks alot for being a kind soul.

Study break is next week and i only have 9 days to my Exams.

Oh wait,if you happen to see me outside,please ask me why i am not studying.

I would be thankful and grateful to hear that.

And it's been 3 days now,i wished i could take back everything that i said.

And if you are reading this post,i'm sorry,cause i didn't meant what i said.









 

The week is coming to an end and thing's haven't been going well for me for the past few days.

I used to think that 'karma' was utter bullshit.Maybe i was wrong.

Seems like i can finally believe that karma do exist in this world.

Everything seems to be falling apart.

I can't seem to do things right and i made a mistake that i should never had did.









 

I thought about alot of things today and i realized that,maybe i'm overreacting over alot of stuffs.

Maybe i should just take things one step at a time,whatever happens tomorrow,i 'll leave it to god to decide.

To cut things short,i had been having alot of downs in my life instead of the up's but i guess this is what life is all about,and sometimes you just have to suck up to it.

And it's not good thinking about unhappy things when i should just fucking live life well.

And to those who were there to console me and listen to all the bullshit that i had to say,i guess i really have to thank you guys cause without you guys,i wouldn't be posting this post right now.

This shouldn't be happening on a friday night but sadly,i'm sitting in front of this fucking com stoning my guts out.

And yes,i'm beginning to taste the failure on my lips already.

I have no cash,i have no place to go,and i'm fucking whinning about life every single fucking day.

No one gives a fuck,but i have to thank all the readers out there viewing this post now cause this is how i feel.

I have no one to turn to,except this lovely lj of mine. 

it's sad to say that the sadness will never end.  

I cry out to god every night hoping that someone,out there,could put an end to this misery but i guess the prayers seemed to had been unanswered for far too long.

Oh J,you 're such a failure.

Fucking one in fact.